My Friend in the BUREAU

we met almost 13 years ago in a law school somewhere in mediola. we were both probinsyana and lady of calculators. being lady of calculators almost everything is quantifiable, measurable, and black and white.

fast forward... 13 years later. i was shocked when i talked to her a few days a ago. she's been with the Bureau for just 3 years but the system's already rubbed on her. she was very proud to tell me that she, together with her "group" already have a "table," if somebody wants something to be fixed they already have a price, but, according to her, if you are a friend it is negotiable. it made me sad. where is our country going...

Eli.

Opting for death over foreseeable tremendous pain and hurt is a sign of weakness and lack of faith.

the best vs. least evil

In a few months it will be election time once again in my beloved land. Election in the Philippines is not just a day activity, it is a months, or even years of grueling endeavor. It is common to most politicians to plan for the next election as soon as they are elected in office.

I have been taking part in the electoral process for more than a decade now, or 3 presidential elections to be exact. The first time I voted for Senator Jovito Salonga, for the second and third, i voted for Senator Raul Rocco. I am proud of my votes.

During those times, my criteria would be, "Who is the best?" Intentions are unquestionable to most of them, they were really for the service of the Filipino people. So, the question then was, "Who is the best?"

Now times are different, my criteria now is "Who is the least evil?" Evil not just in their intentions and ways, but also the "evil" they can bring to the country for their ignorance and unpreparedness.

So, now, i have another question, Who do you choose, the known evil or the "we do not know?"

Filipinos are good people, it is a great race. We deserve the best.

... home alone for 4 days. how i wish i am in manila, family and friends are just a few minutes away. well, hours actually because of the traffic, but who's complaining? not me. i wish to be in manila at this very minute. just that, a wish.

Bright Tomorrow

I can now see
The bright new day
Awaiting for me tomorrow

God is good
God is great
He will see me through.

hurt vs. saddness

Just recently I am able to differentiate these two feelings. I realized that I cry not because I am hurting but because I am sad. And now I am trying to decide what is better... crying because I am are hurting or crying because I am sad. But one thing I am sure... I don't want to cry anymore.

I have no intention of joining the bandwagon of writing about mj, but while watching his funeral, listening to the songs... I can't help but reminisce some beautiful moments with my siblings. There was a time in our lives, in a 2 bedroom apartment, where the 4 of us shared that 1 bedroom, with two double deck beds, where you would hear Heal The World round the clock.

As soon as we wake up that song is playing, while preparing for school the song is still on, when we get back from school, we'll play again the song, while studying and when we sleep... Such a beautiful song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W61Q-EZ8R7M

Miss you guys.