Eli.

Opting for death over foreseeable tremendous pain and hurt is a sign of weakness and lack of faith.

the best vs. least evil

In a few months it will be election time once again in my beloved land. Election in the Philippines is not just a day activity, it is a months, or even years of grueling endeavor. It is common to most politicians to plan for the next election as soon as they are elected in office.

I have been taking part in the electoral process for more than a decade now, or 3 presidential elections to be exact. The first time I voted for Senator Jovito Salonga, for the second and third, i voted for Senator Raul Rocco. I am proud of my votes.

During those times, my criteria would be, "Who is the best?" Intentions are unquestionable to most of them, they were really for the service of the Filipino people. So, the question then was, "Who is the best?"

Now times are different, my criteria now is "Who is the least evil?" Evil not just in their intentions and ways, but also the "evil" they can bring to the country for their ignorance and unpreparedness.

So, now, i have another question, Who do you choose, the known evil or the "we do not know?"

Filipinos are good people, it is a great race. We deserve the best.

... home alone for 4 days. how i wish i am in manila, family and friends are just a few minutes away. well, hours actually because of the traffic, but who's complaining? not me. i wish to be in manila at this very minute. just that, a wish.

Bright Tomorrow

I can now see
The bright new day
Awaiting for me tomorrow

God is good
God is great
He will see me through.

hurt vs. saddness

Just recently I am able to differentiate these two feelings. I realized that I cry not because I am hurting but because I am sad. And now I am trying to decide what is better... crying because I am are hurting or crying because I am sad. But one thing I am sure... I don't want to cry anymore.

I have no intention of joining the bandwagon of writing about mj, but while watching his funeral, listening to the songs... I can't help but reminisce some beautiful moments with my siblings. There was a time in our lives, in a 2 bedroom apartment, where the 4 of us shared that 1 bedroom, with two double deck beds, where you would hear Heal The World round the clock.

As soon as we wake up that song is playing, while preparing for school the song is still on, when we get back from school, we'll play again the song, while studying and when we sleep... Such a beautiful song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W61Q-EZ8R7M

Miss you guys.

My very intention for creating this blog is to have an avenue for my thoughts and feelings, specially about my father whom we lost to cancer close to 5 years ago.

Yes, it has been almost 5 years and I would like to believe that I have already accepted his death... Then I realized, I am stuck... I have accepted his death but it still hurts, you just learn to live with the hurt... beacuse I miss him so much. I will miss him forever.

I plan my life with him in my mind, without him I don't know where to go. But now, I have no choice, I am in a cross road of my life where I have to choose the best road for me. I just pray that whatever road I choose he will still be proud of me.